Dream World

Sunday, May 19, 2013

Where You Lost?

Nothing in the earth,

So warmth as you,

As a series of fire,

That sets free to caught up around,

Magical mirror of soul,

Makes the day full of shines,

With no effort or risk,

You made the world very bright,

When eyes start twinkle,

You born with the instant glow,

If life puts on dark and gloomy,

Simplest way to hide it though,

Priceless gift of all that receive,

Then be yours a lot to give,

When desperate time and fate coalesced,

There’s where I lost you…

My Beautiful Smile!

Monday, May 13, 2013

Heart Feelings 11

In this cruel world,

everyone wears a mask of smile

and show up as they are close

to each other, but in reality

they are keen enough in

knowing each other’s secrets

from them and enjoy spreading it

behind and laugh over

Wednesday, May 8, 2013

I remember those days when I was a school girl with no worries in life and being loved by my mom and dad. I was showered by their unconditional love which disappeared when I completed my college. I was happy when I got placed in the campus interview but later I was restricted by my dad to go for a job far away from my place which ended my career.

Abuse is common in Indian culture. I have faced different types of abuse on different occasions by my dad and my elder sibling who is so selfish in nature because of whom my life stopped moving to the next phase. My elder sibling self-destructed own life and acts as a barrier to stop the improvements of my life too in various ways purposely.

I have experienced physical abuses apart from mental abuses many times. I was choked and strangled by my dad often for silly reasons. I had situations when my dad pulled my hair and threw me to the floor and slapped me to the wall several times for I have said a word against him. Then I was left to cry all the day with visible bruises that make me sore and unable to move.

My mom is an innocent lady with no choice only watch that and leaves from there because she knows the same treatment she will get when she try to interfere. My little sister who supports me in times and understands me well but she can’t do anything without my dad’s knowledge.

Now I am used to live as my dad’s wish (I mean sleep, eat and do nothing). Atleast I can save myself from getting severe hurts. At first it was hard for me to be inside home all time doing nothing, but now it was ok. To say literally, my life is sinking before my eyes and I am unable to rescue it cos of my family (unfortunately my family don’t support me to do anything that helps me). It seems that one is lucky to be doing nothing but to be frank it’s the most painful thing in the world I say.

Sometimes I think to move away from home to save my remaining life that is left to live or die, but I know no one in the world except my unsupporting family. So now am practicing to do nothing and simply breathe to live. I am trying to forget about my studies, career, my happiness and waiting for a change in my life with fingers crossed.

Saturday, May 4, 2013

Live Now

Everything happens in a moment, but the mind unaware of it. Every present we live will be stamped as past certainly. The mind wonders to the past or longs for the unhappened future but all these are realized in the moment. That’s now.

Being conscious in the moment opens up the possibility of a positive and promising future. Ofcourse , this doesn’t mean we don’t need to plan, set goals or prepare for future. We can do all these things and still enjoy each moment as it unfolds.

But how to live now? Its very simple. You just focus on the moment 100%. This means that you do not think about the past or project a future and keep on being in the moment only one moment at a time. Some call this as meditation and indeed your life becomes a continuous meditation. Life is not about achieving but experiencing second by second.

Everybody can live now. So there is nothing to learn or become – only to realize. The biggest hurdle to live now is haunting past and the scary future. Balance the life exactly in the middle between the past and future without any tilting to either direction.

It is a matter of the right attitude. Life becomes a happy and enjoyable trip when the attitude towards it and its events are positive and the present moment is used in the best possible way.

As our minds recreate our past in thoughts, we find that the present is always the mirror of the past. Then nothing new happens and we complain that life is always the same, that nothing changes. Weird, foolish and funny at the same time, isn’t it?

Steps to practice to live now:

• Stop thinking about past and future (atleast not more).

• Don’t rush up with your life to achieve your long term goals. You may forget to live happily.

• Don’t try to please everyone you meet in your daily life (cos half of your life will end up doing this rather than living your own).

• Do the things which you enjoy and not the ones that are forced to do.

• Do your work with enthusiasm and fun mixed (if your work is not so, then make it so in your own way).

• Stop multi-tasking often (do a single work with more concentration by enjoying it).

Will this work? Really I don’t know. But surely it will helpful to relieve the stress in your life. Try it!

Kiss your life

Accept it, just as it is

Today

Now

So that those moments of happiness

You’re waiting for don’t pass you by.

-Philip Bosman

Thursday, April 25, 2013

Pav Bhaji

Ingredients

Potatoes – 3 nos

Green peas – 50 g

Capsicum – 1 no

Tomatoes – 2 nos

Big Onions – 2 nos

Ginger/garlic paste – 1tsp

Chilli powder – ¼ tsp

Lemon juice – ½ tsp

Butter – 50 g

Pav bun – 2 nos

Salt – as required

Water

For masala

Coriander seeds – 1/2 tsp

Dry Red chilli – 2 nos

Dry mango powder – ½ tsp

Cumin – ½ tsp

Fennel – ¼ tsp

Black pepper – 3 nos

Cinnamon – 1 no

Cloves – 2 nos

Cardamom – 1 no

Method

♥ Boil and mash the potatoes.

♥ Cook the green peas until they become tender.

♥ Slightly fry the masala ingredients without oil in a pan and grind them all well.

♥ Now melt 4 tbsp butter and sauté the chopped onions until golden brown.

♥ Then add ginger/garlic paste and chopped capsicum and cook for 3 mins.

♥ Add chopped tomatoes and cook until soft.

♥ Now add 1tsp of the grinded dry masala powder or use instant pav bhaji masala

♥ Add mashed potatoes and green peas.

♥ Then Add chilli powder, salt and little water and let it cook for few mins to the desired consistency.

♥ Now sprinkle lemon juice for taste.

♥ Now the gravy for pav bhaji is ready.

♥ Cut the pav buns in the middle and toast them in butter.

♥ Serve the buns with gravy and enjoy.

Monday, April 22, 2013

Aimless Life

It’s not so nice to be caged in a house in the name of affection. There are different restrictions in Indian families. Restrictions for a girl to laugh loudly, restrictions to come before unknown persons when they come to house, restrictions to go for a job far away from the native, restrictions to talk to boys and many more. As an Indian girl, am experiencing it all from my childhood.

It’s very painful for me to be inside the home for more than 4 years. After I completed my studies, I thought I will be more free from the stress. But later I come to know, the real life starts after finishing the studies and I was never allowed to go out anywhere except with my family and that’s rare.

Slowly I lost contacts from my friends one by one. At first I felt happy to be with my family after completing my studies which I had it away from my family. When a year passed, I felt bored in doing the same things again and again as a routine inside the home. What I did was eating, sleeping, watching tv, reading books. Really sick isn’t it?

I felt so lonely at home when all my family members became busy with their own schedules. Sometimes I don’t know what to do next and waste my time in dreaming, after all what I can do inside a home is to dream only. Nothing much.

I wonder how suddenly the place which I thought as heaven once changed into a hell and a complete jail which I hate most. Now I am totally out in touch with the outside world, losing the hope to live this aimless life.