I Am A Doll

Just like others

I was born & tested,

Dressed & decorated

For a fresh start

To the journey of my life,

Chosen by many,

But left as an option,

I was longing to go,

On a fine moment,

I was handed to my possessor,

My life turned on,

 I was happy,

When pampered & hugged

Cherished moments on roll

Happy days follow,

With time I fade,

Lost beauty & charm

I failed to admire my possessor,

Time to time,

I faced kick offs

And some throw away,

I cried & screamed

In much pain & agony

I left to be alone & ignored,

I prayed & questioned god,

Why am I suffering?

God replied,

The answer is within you,

Me? I looked at my reflection

Then I realized

I am a doll

Without feelings,

With some parts missing!

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Heart Feelings 10

At one point of view,

the person whom you

thought as your enemy

may suddenly shown as

 your friend to you and

the person whom you

 thought as your best friend

may betray you. It’s the

serious game of life and

 it’s rules always change

as often with full of unexpected

 surprises and shocks. Those

who understands this game

completely can win and

others simply stay behind

and fails in life.

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Important Lesson Of Life

I seriously don’t get to know what’s going on with the people around me. When I try to be away from them, they come closer to me and make me feel that they are the best of all buddies I have. So when I conclude they are different and be there for them when they need me, they slowly move away from me. I am fed up of the people who remember me only when they need a help. I know that everything will come to an end one day, but I never thought it will happen very soon. One day they are good, the other day they just flip. If they don’t really want me to be with them, then why they make me feel I am so much important to them? It hurts a lot to see even a small change in the people’s behavior whom I used to know very longer. They have no time for me rather they have their own special category friends list where I do not stand. I try my best not to hurt them in the same way they did to me. So I forget how they moved away from me for days and months and be still for them when they come back again to me while they feel alone without any. I really want my heart to be okay and not to care when they exclude me. But it’s very hard for my heart to understand the reality as my mind do. Step by step I am learning to move on with my life with hope and decided not to dependent on anyone and don’t let anyone to come into my life completely until they are proved to deserve my friendship.

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Never Say Good Bye

Don’t think I will leave you,

I hold on you in my memories,

Don’t guess I will make you so alone,

I stand around you like a shadow,

Though I may not visible to you,

I will let my presence feel nearer you,

Let our hearts communicate beyond miles,

Fly along the clouds to reach me,

Breathe the air that passes you,

Which I sent the breeze of my fragrance touch,

Catch your dream express so soon,

Just to meet me in the glowing moon,

Countless are the nights with teary eyes,

Don’t ever say “Good Bye”

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Heart Feelings 7

Don’t cheat or betray anyone

 in your life in any situation.

In life everything have an option.

Try to choose the other option

when the situation forces

you to cheat someone.

Think of the pain of betrayal

you are about to give by

placing you in the position

of the person you are cheating

before you do it. If that hurts you,

then undoubtedly it will hurt them too.

So, treat everyone as you treat your own!   

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A Love Redefined

She read the message he sent again and again for a while.

                “I can’t be your friend again anymore. I thought you are the girl of my life. But you are not, now I realized it’s my mistake that I loved a girl like you. I don’t want you and you are not upto my expectations. You have a reason for everything you do. You never understand me and you are so selfish that you do anything for your happiness only. You are a cheat. Now everything is finished. Don’t disturb me. Good bye.”

 Silently she started crying after reading the message. She thinks of the day how their beautiful friendship turned into love. She wondered how the things which she did when they were friends once gave him happiness suddenly turned into the things he hate after they fall in love.

After few mins, she took her mobile and started typing,

                “Am I selfish? I have changed myself a lot for you from the beginning till today. The things whatever I did aimed only for your happiness. But still you always have problems with me. I started to notice slowly I am losing my originality. Why don’t you accept me as the way I am? I’m same from the day one after you came into my life. But you have changed after we get into a relationship. I tried hard to fulfill all your wishes then and there to keep you happy. I cared for you more than anyone but you always hurt me more. I think love is all about living for each other, compromising without egos and not for fulfilling each one’s expectations. If I failed to live upto your expectations, then should I considered to be a cheater and not the one fit for love? I am fed up of your silly fights cos of your higher expectations. It’s very much enough now. I want someone who loves me as I am with my mistakes not a guy who changes me according to his expectations. Thanks for going out of my life. Take care. Bye”

She clicked the send button, took a deep breathe and felt relaxed. She was clear in her decision and started to live her life in her own way.

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Sometimes Fight Is Good

They started to argue in a louder voice and it took a diversion towards fight and ended up in a misunderstanding between each other. She cuts his call and started to cry. She felt very bad for arguing with him and for opposed him.

At the other end, he also felt that he hurts her with harsh words and he regret for doing that. But they dint expect that their argument will finish in a fight. They are sad for what they did but never admit their regression to each other because of ego.

He took his mobile and started to type her number to dial and erased it immediately. He wanted her to call him first. His ego dint let him to call her.

She waited for his call. She looked her mobile’s screen each and every minute for beep sound and call. But she was disappointed as he dint made any. She continued to wait with tears in her eyes and mobile on her hand.

Time moves on and an hour passed. She was waiting for him to initiate a call or message. She knew well about his ego and attitude. She could not control her pinching heart that urge to message him. Finally she gives up and decided she can’t wait more. Her love on him defeats her ego. She sent a message to him.

          “Sorry I know I hurt you by opposing you”

Immediately when he got the message from her, he called him. He felt sorry for fighting with her. They both realized they can’t live without each other even for an hour. She said “I felt like I was in hell without talking to you”. He was happy to know that she was also missing him like he missed her for an hour and his eyes filled with tears. He said “Now I got back my life”. They felt their love on each other increased after a fight and started loving more. Sometimes fight is good for love.

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So-Called Friendships

True friends are rare to get in this world. It’s not a pride to tell that “I have got many new friends” when they don’t even value their old friends. I wonder how friendship and selfishness can live together! Is it possible?

I experienced some of my “so called” friends are selfish enough to hurt. I write this post for all those who forgot their old friends for their new friends.

I don’t know why people partition their friends as new and old. I read somewhere,

“Friendship is the only relationship that never grew old”. To me, friends are the life’s greatest treasures, never to be taken for granted or treated lightly.

Friends are friends even if they don’t communicate with each other for a long time. If lack of communication between friends can kill a friendship then it’s true that they may not be friends before and after too.

Friends are not meant to be disposable. I accept the fact that human mind and behavior change often. They need different things at different times in a different way. This applies in relationships also.

It’s unfair to compare one friend with other in a true friendship. Comparing friends is like picking your favorite child among your own.

Friendship is a special package to be handled with care. Real friends don’t let stupid things ruin their friendship. True friends are apart from selfishness, egos and jealousy. They won’t leave you in any bad situation and stay with you forever in your happy moments.

Remember, like trust once friendship is broken, it cannot be mend again as wise before. It’s lost forever. Last but not least, the people whom you consider as new also will become old one day.

  

Finally I understand that all relationships evolve over time. Some exist for life long and some fade away with time.

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Without You I Am...

Down at the heart,

There is a feeling of loneliness,

     Where I feel the whole world

Around me is disabled,

     Nothing and nothing,

A complete darkness surrounded

     When I see the moon,

It’s not so bright…

     And the stars lost their twinkle,

The breeze stopped its gentleness,

     The beauty of the earth failed to admire…

I missed the way of my life path,

     What am I looking for,

What am I waiting for,

I haven’t any clue for the screaming

Inside my heart…

     Somewhere, sometime

You too may think of me,

     The same way I do for you…

I close my eyes to see you

     In my dreams forever…

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